Wednesday, December 31, 2014

Another year down

It is so crazy to me that 2014 is over. Where did the time go? Why is time going by so fast?
Fun fact for you, I remember when the 50 state quarters started coming out and my little quarter map said the last 5 quarters would come out in 2008 and I remember thinking, "2008! That is forever away!" Now 2008 and several other years have come and gone and here I am blogging about 2014.
The past year started out on a rough note, with John's uncle, who was more like a father to him, passing away after a car accident. John and I went to Philadelphia for the funeral and John returned two weeks later with his grandma and everything she could fit in four suitcases. The three of us lived in our two bedroom apartment for the next six months. I am not going to lie that was a challenge but now that everything has settled and we have a new house and John's grandma has her own basement apartment to live in I know that it was the right decision for her to come here with us.
That brings me to the next big thing that happened, we bought a house! It has a full mother-in-law apartment for John's grandma, plus more than enough room for John and I, and a big backyard for Willy to run around in. The house buying process was easier than I expected. We only looked at a few houses before we found the one we ended up buying and luckily we didn't have to go through a big bidding process, our first offer was accepted!
We still have a lot of little projects and some big ones, that we want to do in the coming years including planting grass in the backyard, painting all the bedrooms and the kitchen and maybe converting our wood-burning fireplace to gas, but for now we are loving it just the way it is! We've already had our first major home problem when we found out we had tree roots in main sewer line just after Thanksgiving. The roots were causing water to backup into the basement when we used a lot of water at once. It was expensive to fix but that problem is taken care of and we are guaranteed for the next 50 years.
I also started a new job this year. It was bittersweet for me to leave journalism and the newspaper but I am thoroughly enjoying the new job. I work at a nonprofit company in Murray called HealthInsight. The company is a health care contractor that works with hospitals and doctors to help improve health care through various grants. I do anything related to communications which means writing press releases, editing grant proposals and blogs, creating fliers, posters and newsletters. In the coming weeks I am working on some success stories which I am really excited for because it will be just like being a reporter! I get to do interviews and write stories, which I have always loved.
It seems crazy that 2014 is already over but I'm looking forward to new and exciting adventures in 2015, starting with my whole family going to Hawaii in February. I can't wait to spend 8 days on the beach with my sisters and parents!
I hope everyone has a safe and happy New Year's celebration and the best 2015 imaginable.
Happy New Year's!!

Wednesday, November 26, 2014

Thankful

There have been a lot of up and downs since I blogged about Thanksgiving last year. John's uncle passing away and his grandma moving in with us, buying a house and getting a new job just to name a few. But even with the challenges and bad times I am still so overwhelmed by how grateful I am for everything I have. It has taken many years, experiences and meeting new people for me to truly realize how good I have it.
I have an amazing family, one of the best in my opinion, who are full of love and support no matter what stupid things I may do. I have friends that are always there for me when I need a laugh, a shoulder to cry on and a night out to relieve some stress. I have an incredible husband who loves me no matter what and does whatever it takes to make me happy. I have a house to call my own, a car that runs (with heat and A/C), an awesome job that I love and a lovable and a snuggly pug to come home to everyday. I really don't think I could ask for anymore because I know I am so so blessed!
As I sit here getting ready to go home for the day and get started on the Thanksgiving preparations I can't be anything but thankful. Thankful for all the wonderful people in my life, thankful for everyone who has ever supported me and helped me get where I am today, thankful for a home and what is sure to be an amazing meal tomorrow, thankful for the family I get to share it with and those who are far away, thankful for everything, just thankful.


Monday, November 10, 2014

Enough already!

I'm not even a mom and all the "mom-shaming" and competition about breastfeeding vs. bottle-feeding, stay-at-home moms vs. working moms, co-sleeping or not, is getting ridiculous. I rarely go more than a few days without seeing some article or blog or post on Facebook about these so called "mommy wars". All I can say is, what is wrong with us? Why do we have to judge each other, and put each other down? Shouldn't we, as women and mothers, be supporting each other, not tearing each other down?
Based solely on observations of friends, families and acquaintances I think it is safe to say that being a mom is hard work, without being put down for the choices you make for yourself and your family. First and, probably foremost, is this crazy debate about breastfeeding vs. bottle feeding, brought to the forefront by news stories of women being asked to leave any number of public places for breastfeeding. Women should not be forced into dirty bathrooms or hot cars to feed their babies, end of story, but women should also not be shamed by other women if they cannot/choose not to breastfeed. This story was written by a woman who had breast cancer and double mastectomy before she had her baby and therefore could not breastfeed. She was shamed and bullied by the nurses at the hospital, women in a baby and me yoga class and perfect strangers for not breast feeding when it was physically impossible. But even if she simply made the choice not to breastfeed she shouldn't be shamed. Why do we have to make each other feel bad for making the best choice for our families? I have already written a blog about breastfeeding so I won't bore you by rehashing my argument again.
Even more crazy to me than the breastfeeding battle seems to be this competition between stay-at-home moms and working moms.
This story in the Deseret News is what sparked this blog in the first place. I saw it posted on my Facebook timeline more than once yesterday. One person thought it was interesting, another thought it was a shameful example of journalism, others simply liked it. The story was not at all what I expected to read when I clicked on it. I expected another article about how much work stay-at-home moms actually do all day, which by the way I don't think even needs to be explained, no one should have to defend their daily life to strangers. But this article listed things like stay at home moms are better off financially, have thinner, smarter and happier kids, and are happier themselves. The author cites various studies as the resources for the information on each of the six items.
What I find fascinating is this article, which directly contradicts the DNews article, cites a study saying stay at home moms are more depressed and this one talks about how a large percentage of stay at home moms live at or below the poverty line and are only stay at home moms because they have no other choice. Which happens to be the exact point that President Obama made in a controversial speech last week. Facebook exploded with posts about how Obama hates stay at home moms, which by the way, is not what he said. His point was that moms should not be forced to stay at home because they have no other option, that there needs to be affordable daycare options out there for moms who need to or want to work. His point was not that no woman should ever be a stay at home mom but that they shouldn't be forced to make that choice. But I can't help but wonder, why does everyone care what I do with my children?
If you want to be a stay at home mom from the day you bring your baby home from the hospital until the day they graduate from high school that is great, if you can afford to do that, even better! If you want to go back to work six weeks after your baby is born that is fine too! If you want to stay home until your kids are in school and then go back to work part-time, great!
I can't understand why the choices we make for ourselves and our families have to be judged by everyone else. Not everyone has the income or desire to be a stay at home mom but that doesn't make them a bad mom who is going to raise dumb, fat and unhappy children!
Women and mothers, have enough battles to fight and obstacles to overcome without putting each other down. Let's take a step back and realize that we may not know everything about everyone else's circumstances or why they make the choices they do. Instead, let's be supportive and caring and kind, regardless of whether we have different opinions and ways of doing things. Let's stop all the pointless arguing and shaming and instead just support each other as women and mothers.

Monday, November 3, 2014

Feeling it

It has been a really long time since I've been in any sort of groove with working out and eating healthy. Since I trained for Ragnar two years ago it has been a struggle to want to work out and an even bigger struggle to want to eat healthy. I just wanted to eat all the "good" things, I was tired of dieting and depriving  myself, so I didn't do it anymore. Add in the stress of buying house, having John's grandmother move in with us, moving and starting a new job and my waistline and weight reached new highs that I am ashamed to think about, let alone talk about.
But right now I am in such a good place! Almost two months ago I knew I needed to to do something and even though I know a lot about dieting and macros and counting calories, I knew I couldn't do it alone. I enlisted the help of an online personal trainer I've worked with in the past but this time I wanted to make small changes that I could sustain instead of jumping in and getting overwhelmed. So I signed up for macro tracking, basically Lindsey tells me how many grams of carbs, fat and protein I get each day and I try to stay within five grams up or down of that goal. Before I could start doing that though she had me track my calories for four days to get a baseline. Talk about a wake-up call. One of the days I ate over 3,000 calories and too me it wasn't even a day that I "pigged out." It wasn't hard to see why I had gotten so fat. The first week was a struggle, keeping my fat content in my goal range was hard!! Why do things have so much fat in them?! Getting enough protein was even harder. But Lindsey promised me I was doing great and that it would get easier over time.
A week later, I found a 12-week online workout challenge. The IdealShape Shape Up Challenge has been sooooo good for me! It was exactly the type of program I needed to get back into the groove of working out. Every week I get six workouts emailed to me, I pull them up via Youtube on my TV and follow along. The workouts are short (15 to 20 minutes) but effective and all I need to do them is some dumbbells and an exercise ball (which I already had). I'm halfway through the challenge and loving it! The combination of the workout challenge and macro tracking is perfect for me. I don't feel deprived because if I want to eat mac and cheese for dinner I can, I just have to "budget" my macros accordingly for the rest of the day. But I've also rediscovered that healthy food doesn't have to be boring and bland! I had three pumpkin chocolate chip muffins for breakfast that were made with egg whites and oatmeal and were delicious. For dinner I'm having chicken enchiladas in a whole wheat tortilla. I don't feel deprived and that makes me want to keep going!
 Because I can do all the workouts at home I don't have to try and motivate myself to go to the gym and they are short so it doesn't take an hour and a half to get a good workout in. So far I've lost 10 pounds and a total of 9 inches, mostly from my waist and hips. So many times in the past I've started working out and not seen instant results and have given up. I'm so glad I've stuck it out for six weeks because now that I am seeing changes I even more motivated to keep going because I'm so excited to see what else will happen. And even though I know the holidays will be hard I am happy that my 12-week challenge won't end until the week before Christmas because I want to stay motivated and keep working hard and maybe even lose weight this holiday season instead of gaining it like I have always done in the past.
I'm feeling good and can't wait to keep going!!

Wednesday, July 30, 2014

Bittersweet

Today I am a bundle of emotions. Nervous, excited, sad.. all rolled into one. It is my last day at the Herald and I would be lying if I said I wasn't going to miss it here.
I've made a lot of great friends in my (almost) 3 years here and I am sad to be leaving them. It's been so fun getting to know the people here and joking about stories and sharing many, many treats. The people here is definitely the thing I will miss the most.
I am also a little sad to be leaving the newsroom and journalism. I will miss the adrenaline rush of writing on a deadline after a late night jury verdict, I'll miss writing every single day (although I hope that will be part of my new job) and since I like to know things, I'll miss being the first to know the news!
I am also extremely excited for the new opportunity a head of me. I am excited to not have to commute 70-plus miles to work every day, I'm excited to get to work in the health care industry, something I have been passionate about for years, I'm excited about using my skills in a different field and I'm excited to get to know new people and make new friends.
Change is always scary and exciting and I am feeling butterflies about starting a new job tomorrow but today as I leave the Herald for the last time there is only one word to describe it: bittersweet.

Monday, July 28, 2014

What did I get myself into?

Painting seems like a good idea until you are in the middle of painting.
This is what happened to me over the weekend, I got super excited about painting pretty much the entire new house. I was going to paint the kitchen and the master bedroom and the living room and entry way and master bathroom and maybe even the two guest bedrooms. Really the only room I wasn't going to paint was the guest bathroom. Lucky for me (and my credit card) I got overwhelmed with choosing paint colors for all these places and decided to scale it down and only paint the living room, entry way and one bathroom.
I spent probably 10 hours or more this weekend taping walls and ceilings and painting the living room. My shoulders and arms are sore from the actual painting, my back is sore from bending over to paint the bottom of the walls and my calves are sore from standing on my tip toes to paint the tops of the walls. And I am probably not even halfway done. Because the colors that are currently in the house are super dark I have to do two coats of paint on every service, meaning I essentially have to paint every room twice. This weekend I finished the living room and I am not looking forward to next weekend, which I know will be another 3-day marathon painting session in hopes of finishing everything else. Who's idea was this?

Saturday, July 19, 2014

Calm Down

Now that the long and super annoying process of buying a house is over I am getting really excited to move in and make it our own and by really excited I mean I have gone a little bit crazy.
I filled a shopping cart (and deleted it all) on Home Depot's website no less than 4 times. I have done the same at Ikea, WalMart and Target.
It is all so exciting! I just want to buy a million things: new curtains, new furniture, stuff to build a pantry, a new light for the dining room, a new vanity for the bathroom and the list goes on an on! Then of course there are things we actually need like new locks for the doors, smoke alarms, a lawn mower and handles for the cabinets in the kitchen.
And I want to do a million projects too! Like build a pantry, put a new vanity and medicine cabinet in the bathroom, put a shelf in the laundry room, paint some walls, add some shelves, change lights out and all this on top of making our backyard which has 3-foot tall weeds and no grass, look somewhat decent.
And of course I need to finally print some wedding pictures and hang all my other pictures on the wall for everyone to see!
In the two days since we got the keys to the house I have measured almost every room in the house, used online graph paper to try and decide how to arrange the furniture in our living room and bedroom (yes I know I have a problem) and crunched numbers a million times to decide how much of my craziness we can actually afford.
The problem with all of this, besides the money part, is that I am very much one of those people who get all excited to start a project and do really well for a little while and then lose interest and either never finish or take forever to finish. I can't start 6 projects at my new house because I know if I do a year from now at least 4 of them will probably not be done and that would make me crazy for a whole new reason.
I think it is probably a good idea for someone to take away all my credit cards and ban me from going to Home Depot, Lowe's or Ikea until some of the excitement has passed and I can make rational decisions again.


Monday, June 2, 2014

I am a control freak

This is not new information. I have always been a control freak. I like to know what is happening, why, when and be in control of those things whenever possible.
That makes buying a house one of the most stressful things ever!! John and I are in the process of getting approved by the banking/looking at houses/praying our offer is accepted and it is making me crazy! Because I can't control any of it, all I can do is sit and wait and try not to have a panic attack (side note: it is not going well).
I can't control how fast the bank processes our application or if the seller accepts our offer and I am not very good at being patient!
As another side note, my control freak ways did make the actual application process with the bank go very smoothly because I had all the documents I need printed out and ready to give the mortgage officer which made everything super easy and fast.
I know all this waiting will be worth it in the end but in the meantime I am going crazy!!

Wednesday, January 8, 2014

New Year, New Me

For as many years as I can remember I have made my New Year's resolution to lose weight, while this year is no different I still want to lose weight, I am doing it for a different reason.
In the past my number one focus was always looking good and being "skinny" but after several months of health issues, that may or may not be related to my weight, I am ready for a real positive change that has nothing to do with what size of jeans I can wear. 
I want to lose weight so I can be healthy, so my body doesn't have to work so hard to go through daily life, so I don't someday end up taking medicine for high blood pressure, high cholesterol and maybe diabetes. If there is anything that being sick off and on for the past several months has taught me it is this: good health is a blessing but not something that comes without work. 
I want more than anything to not be sick anymore (or ever again but that is just wishful thinking) and I have come to realize that no amount a medicine can make up for not taking care of my body. 
I have to drink more water and eat more vegetables and workout and stop making excuses. No one forced me to not workout for 4 months, nobody has held me down and forced me to eat pizza, ice cream, cookies, pop, sugary cereal and a number of other foods that have been a regular part of my diet the past few months. I chose to eat those thing and I chose to not workout and now I have to choose healthier habits. 
As I write this I am drinking a green juice made from cucumber, celery, spinach, lemon and apple. It isn't the most tasty thing I have ever drank but it is good for me and for my body. 
I want to eat less processed foods, drink less caffeine, eat more whole foods and listen to my body when it comes to hunger cues. I don't want to never eat dessert again but I do need to implement a lot of moderation in my life. I know I can't do a complete 180 all at once but I am on the path, taking baby steps, towards a healthier, happier me.